Letter to God

Dear Heavenly Father,

       I don't know my part in Your story, I don't know Your plans for me, but is this really how You want me to be or has the devil tricked me? I went from being almost sure about how You would want me to live to not knowing what to do anymore. I don't know which way to go. I think I'm lost.

       I thought the NIV Bible was reliable, but multiple people have said that it's not. Then which version is reliable? I researched different ones, but I don't know what to believe. I need Your guidance, please.

       I wish You would speak to me. And if You've tried, I wish I would have recognized Your voice.  Can You please make sure I'll always know it's You from now on?

       I'm not happy with myself. I feel like I'm failing you every day. I'm so sorry. Please help me. Please change me. Please fix whatever is wrong with me. You're my only hope.

Sincerely,
Jamilet